CUSP: Climbing Up the Spiral Pathway

I swear, it seems like a bazillion years since last Winter Solstice.  I know I’m late posting about this Yule as I normally like to do it a couple of weeks ahead of time when the energy is new and incoming instead of chewed up and on the way out.

I don’t think there is anyone out there who will deny that 2008 was just a really weird year and it continues to be so right up until the last minute.  The reason I am delayed is that quite honestly, I am still trying to puzzle it all out.

Back in March, actually, in fact (so this fits) a few weeks after Spring Equinox, we planted our beans to represent our goals for the year.  I ended up getting a redirect quite literally at the last minute, just before I was shoving my beans into their earthy little womb.  We waited because it just didn’t feel right to plant at the Equinox when we were “supposed” to and if CUSP is anything, it’s flexible.  Like the Pirate’s Code, it’s more of “guidelines,” actually.  In a true agricultural process, you would not start tilling up your gardening area just because Spring hit if you had a foot or so of snow on the ground.  You wait until nature is ready.  That is what we do with CUSP as well.

So we waited and then we planted.  I was ambitious and lofty and planted health, joy, peace and money.  As it turned out, I got all of those things and feel really great about my harvest.  My beans grew much faster and stronger than Eric’s (ha ha, budddeee) and I had beans sooner and ended up having LOTS of beans, in fact (double ha ha, budddeee).  His little beans that could plugged along in earnest, as did his goals.  My beans fell over dead and spent promptly on November 1st while his hung heavy and beaniful.  Despite the tradition of cutting your losses once you are in to November, we let them go just because they looked so happy being there.  I want to tell you, those little suckers are STILL GOING STRONG!  Here it is a full 7 weeks or so after his harvest was supposed to end and his beans are still green and vibrant and growing, as are the associated goals he planted.  So, pfft, whatever.  Ha on me!

This means the poor guy did not get his 6 weeks of rest at all and has been powering through task after task of pulling harvest from the fields, even into December.  It’s finally starting to settle down for him and his path is being revealed, which is what he asked for the harvest.  He will not find out until JANUARY for sure which direction it will take, so I guess he will just power on into the next season as well.

Which is what brings us to the current Winter Solstice…

As I said, it felt odd to go out looking for the spark when he is still out in the field harvesting, but off spark hunting we did go.  He decided to plant “his passion,” meaning to find something he loves doing in his life that will be profitable.  He makes decent money now, but does not love what he’s doing and wants to feel that.  I can’t fault him any on that one.  I love my life and carefully and magickally set my life up in a particular way that I would  love.  It worked, but even with magick, it took time.

He has already gotten an idea of what that might be, talk about quick action, but we will wait to see how that unfolds and affects his life.

It was hard for me to find my spark of light for what I want to plant because I feel comfortable where I am.  The only thing that bothers me is my weight issue and so I figure, *sigh*, I might as well work on that.  I am not feeling any motivation whatsoever to do it, but in absence of anything better, it seems timely.  I will spend a year sacrificing and growing and working towards it in gratitude for the other things I have that bring me so much joy and happiness. 

It has been so long that I cannot even imagine the joy and happiness that being slender would bring me.  I do not remember ever feeling that way since even when I was small, the people around me were all convinced I was fat and so that was the identity I carried with me.  I have never, ever felt small, even when I was nearly emaciated.

Those are the issues I have to work on in the coming months, as well as the magic formula of “eat less, eat better and exercise.”  Ugh.  Who wants to do THAT?

But since I first got this default spark, I have felt called into battle to do this, even as every fiber of my being struggles against the idea.  That is another of the challenges I will explore. 

For our Winter Solstice ritual, since intense snow storms kept Jen away, we did a meditation together to search for the spark, which is where we got our starting points.  In the coming 6 weeks, we will be on careful watch for the confirmations and redirects from The Universe to support or redirect our ideas for what to plant. 

I figure with all I got from my last harvest, I have no business fussing if my work in the field this year is something I don’t really want to do.  To give with love when we don’t want to is called sacrifice and that is a lovely side of honoring Deity and ultimately, tends to take us even closer to our own greatest good.

But damn, can’t they come up with that Super Pill that just tightens up all the right spots and shrinks down all the right spots over night?  Sheesh!  What’s taking so long??  Maybe THAT is what I should plant.  (heh heh)